‘Just write and see what comes out!’ is what other bloggers I have spoken to have said…
….so here goes… my first blog post….
Hi! I’m Angela, I am 31 years old and I live in London, and although I have enjoyed my previous jobs there has been a core essence of my being that has felt slightly dead/shut off inside when it came to my career. This is quite sad when you think about it, seeing as that is the entire time I have been in ‘proper jobs’ and on the career ladder.
Now you could have easily read that first paragraph and thought ‘oh wow, this woman sounds like doom and gloom. Its her first blog post and she has already written the phrase ‘dead inside!”
I guess it depends how you look at it. I wouldnt say doom and gloom, I would say that I finally woke up to myself! I woke up to my whole personality, and realised that I have been trying to squish all of many talents, quirks and interests into boxes that have been created by other people.
And I don’t want to do it anymore.
Ultimately I want to build up my own business. I want to work on something day in and day out that is crafted and scuplted by myself. I am also in the process of writing two books that I want to publish.
So I left my job.
Wooooah, slow your row! You left your full-time job!?!? Just like that?!?! One day you walked in to your boss, put your resignation letter on the table and quit? That same day?? Thats the dream!
No, of course not, don’t be daft. This isn’t a Hollywood film people! This is real life. I have rent and bills to pay!
I gave six weeks notice and I physically left the building two weeks ago. But for me the process of leaving began a good few months before. The shift that it took mentally to tell myself and convince myself I could go it alone took quite a while.
I realised that that period in time is where I want to start my posts from and what I initially want to focus this blog on – to look back into the very recent past at how I have moved from working for an employer, thinking about my next strategic move up that career ladder, comparing myself to others of the same age, thinking about my pension and not being very excited about the whole thing – to jacking it all in and going it alone. I will also take you on my journey from this point forward – I know there will be many tears, laughs and long days ahead of me!
I intend to use this blog as a way to talk openly about the process, self discovery (how cheesy) and inadvertent techniques and tips I have learnt along the way – with the aim of being able to offer advice to others who want out, or are on the precipice of making that big step themselves.
Through a lot of self-reflection one key element in all of this is the power of words, and the effects they have on all of us.
So lets dig a little deeper…..care to join me?